It's amazing what 24 hours can do...

So, if you read my last post you may have realized that it was a bit um... desperate. Well, it really is amazing what 24 hours can do. After sleeping on it and thinking about everything, I realized that us breaking up was most definitely for the best. I deserve someone who loves me just as much as I love them...and I never had that with Dan. To be perfectly honest, I don't believe he ever really loved me. There were a lot of signs that I missed, but I won't get into them. 

So now...here is a new, less hysterical version of what I wrote yesterday... stating my true, logical and totally thought out feelings. 

Dan -

Yes, I do still believe that I love you, and I don't think that love will ever die, but that love is not for who you are now, it is for who you were when I met you. You have done a lot of growing into yourself this year, and that has caused a lot of changes. You are not the same person that you used to be, and though not all of those changes are necessarily bad, they did cause us to drift farther apart, fight, and in the end help us realize that we were not meant to be.  

I honestly believe that even though I cared about you a lot, and loved you with all I had, the feeling was not mutual. Yes, I know you cared about me, but it wasn't love, even if you may have thought it was. I deserve to be with someone who loves me just as much as I love them, and I didn't have that with you. But, I do know that one day we will both find that mutual connection with someone, even though it's not with each other. 

I do have to admit, that I am glad we are staying friends. At first I didn't think it would work because of the feelings I still had for you, but to be honest, the more people point out how much you've changed the more I realize that those feelings are not there anymore. Yes, I know I said that I still love you, but remember, I love the person you used to be. Because of that, I know that we can stay friends, which will also make it easier on those who care about both of us. Besides, no one knows me as well as you do, you are a great friend, and I would hate to lose that. 

Ok, now that I am out of my crazed, shocked, hurt self that I was yesterday, I am glad that I was able to get how I really feel out there. 

Also....

Thank you SO much to everyone who has been there for me through not only this, but everything that has happened in the past few years. You guys are my best friends, and I would be lost without you. Love you guys to death! :)